Has your day started badly? Well regardless I win for worst morning start thus far! I was driving here 4 minutes behind schedule spilled coffee all down my pants leaving me with a burn on my right leg. Then I was walking down the stairs to the studio and fell the whole way down. OUCH! My legs feel like they have been in a car accident. This will probably be the shortest blog ever. I will catch you all up on Monday with the events of my weekend.
xoxo

I was in bed all weekend. I had my earaches and sore throat to thank for that. I did however realize that an elephant moved in upstairs. I don’t mean a big girl or guy either I literally mean an elephant. It wasn’t just 2 oversized stomps on my ceiling but 4. How is that possible? Sometimes I hear 5 and I am thinking it could be the trunk hitting the ground, or possibly river dancing either way I am going with the elephant theory. I have never really run into this problem before so I am not sure how to handle it. One thought was to take a broom like they do on old black and white comedies and hit the ceiling but then the white chalk with fall down and it will look like I have a bad case of dandruff. My second was to walk up there and knock on there door and politely ask them to chill. My third was to deal until I am so overwhelmed with annoyance that when I see them I will want to attack. Okay it’s a good thing I am heavy sleeper and I have a great amount of patience. I ignored it and I am hoping it’s just a phase. I hate confrontation so I will give the elephant 1 week to stop. If this keeps going maybe JC or AL could go up there and pretend to be my boyfriend and ask them to stop. LOL I will keep you posted.
Saturday was my big outing from 1-4 and it was the North Park Center Shoes that Rock. Melanie the winner was sweet and everyone showed up so it was so much fun. I did get distracted for about 15 minutes which was just long enough to let the lady at the Loreal makeup counter freshen up my makeup. My mom always told me that if you feel bad try to look good it will help you feel better.
Sunday I had lunch with the family and I would like to go on record saying they can be really great. This was one of those moments. Tanner bought a new POS truck but he is proud of it and he can save money this way.
Dianthe thank you! You pretty much ROCK! She remembered me asking for cotton candy so when she went to the art festival she picked me up some. YAY I love it! It’s my Monday morning breakfast and only 2 calories LOL.

I couldn’t take it any longer and after a good friend of mine convinced me it was the only way, I knew no matter how much I didn’t want I had to. That’s right I went to an Emergency Care Clinic. The past 2 weeks my ears have been throbbing, my throat swollen tight, and my cough was killing me. When you feel sick I do believe everything in your world seems worse. I didn’t yesterday it took my friend some convincing to get me to see that. I drove to my mom and dads house so my mom could do what she loves and that is take care of me. I know it makes her sad to think of me not needing her and to an extent I can do it on my own, but I do need her and I love it when she does take care of me. When I get there I called the house and asked her to come outside so we could leave. It only took her 5 minutes before she told me she thought my hair was to dark, my skin wasn’t its best, and how beautiful her new friend’s daughters were. I guess that’s all moms that do this. I don’t believe she meant it to be mean but it did bum me out a little bit. The drive started to take forever but finally after what seemed like forever we go there and YAY the parking lot was practically empty. I was prepared to stay a while. The nurse at the front was not in the mood. You could tell she wanted to get out of there. Twenty questions, blood pressure, heart rate, body weight, and temperature okay thanks nurse now I will wait. Thirty minutes later he “knocks on the curtain” I said “who is it” apparently sense of humor left the building. The Dr. re-did what the nurse did. I guess he was bored. Then check my throat and ears to find sinus infection. He said I would need amoxicillin. I got excited because I love the way it tastes. He said umm not so much that stuff is for kids. I asked nicely if I could have that but take a higher dose. He said “LOOK YOU’RE AN ADULT, SO YOU DO ADULT THINGS!” Ewww No Thank you! I was still being nice but felt the comment was rude. Then I said my ears are killing me could I get a cortisone shot and call it a night PLEASE? He looked at me and said you shouldn’t beg for a medicine it gives the wrong impression. Apparently Cortisone junkies are a problem in this country and when I asked that automatically put me in that category. I was ready to leave I didn’t appreciate the way the Dr. was treating me. I know we all have bad days but my 1st emergency care experience was terrible. I am sick Doc please just be sweet. I got my prescription and then I was off to bed. AHHHHHHH I am in PAIN!

Yesterday couldn’t have been gloomier. It seemed oddly appropriate after what has happened at Virginia Tech. I was so down yesterday so right after the show I hurried back to my apt. and with my jeans still on jumped into my bed. I have the most comfortable bed on the planet. I know that’s a pretty bold statement but I just love it so much. It was not but 5 minutes later I was asleep. I had some work to do back at the studio but not until 2 so my phone was off and from 11-1:40 I was dreaming. I had the strangest dream and I can’t get it out of my head. I was running from a killer (hmmm) and decided to stay at my friend Tucker’s parents place. They in my dream lived at an assisted living/ exotic pet farm. There was this Ostrich and then it turned into a balloon with a chicken trying to bite it. It was some weird LSD( esque) dream. I was leaving work when a friend (Britney) called me and sounded a little upset. I asked her what was wrong and she asked me a question that in no way do I think I should answer. She is getting married in a only a few short weeks and it’s a huge wedding she really just went all out. She has cold feet now and doesn’t know if she should marry (Brent). She said save me what do I need to do. Okay first of all I am going to support my friend but I am not touching that question with a 10 ft. pole. I know she loves him and he is head over heels for her but she is only 24 and thinks she might have made a bad decision. We are going to dinner this weekend to talk about it but I don’t know what else to tell her except please don’t make a hasty decision and make sure she knows what she is doing. I don’t believe in marriage okay let me rephrase that. I do believe in it but I think it is such a serious commitment that young adults should wait or at least not make a quick decision. Where I am at in my life right now I am partial to strong bonds and long committed relationships with a bf or gf. I don’t think I am the one to talk to about this, although I won’t sway her opinion either way because it is clearly not my place. I did tell her the dating scene right now is not the greatest in case she was thinking of trying something new. She is smart and beautiful so I am confident she will make the right decision for her. Drama! I am happy to say for once it is not mine. One last thing I LOVE SANJAYA and I am not trying to be funny or mock him. I feel bad for him and think he is a sweet boy who doesn’t deserve to have people boo him at a sporting event when he is on the jumbo screen. Yes I did vote for him last night. My thoughts and prayers will continue to go to the victims and their families for the tragedy at VT.

LOVE,
Tay

Yesterday I had so many different waves of emotion. I feel like my lack of sleep didn’t do me any favors. I was on the phone yesterday with someone’s assistant and I was responding to an email from a friend. I am quite good at multitasking. I was finishing my thought and wrapping up a phone call at the same time. I hope you can understand my embarrassment when I tell you what happened next. The lady said okay thank you and I followed that with no problem LOVE YOU! I was so embarrassed, I can’t even tell you. As I was writing the email I finished it with “love, Taylor” but my mouth got a head of me and it just came out. That was my laugh out loud moment of the day. Wednesday I talked to Taylor Swanson on the phone for about 20 minutes. She was of course hilarious. We have not hung out in 4 months. I am not going to put all the blame on her for that but I am not going to take most of it either. Anyway, we made plans for Thursday night. We were going to go to dinner at 5:30ish. There are more times than not that she has had to cancel so I tried not to get my hopes up. Talk about weak moments. I always get my hopes up with her. She is great and I love her to death but, at times she can be a little flaky. I know she knows this so I am not going to beat her up about it. As the day went on the more excited I got. It was about 2pm when I called her to see where she wanted to meet. She didn’t answer. At about 3:15pm she called me back and…she cancelled. I was kind of upset but I have learned with her that there is no point in going on and on about me being upset. It is best to just drop it because she knows I am with out me saying it. She asked what I was doing tonight and I said I would love to re-schedule. I guess we will see what happens but as of now I am excited. I hate that I get such high hopes with her.

The world was a little brighter yesterday because I met Adam Brody. It’s the small things like a celebrity crush, no line at Walmart, your boyfriend or girlfriend brings you a surprise. Whatever it may be I hope you get it because no matter if others think it’s silly or not important if it is to you then that’s all matters. I did ask for Adam’s number and then after obsessing whether or not I should call or text I decided to text. I felt it was the most non threatening. I started with “Hey it’s Taylor and it was great talking to you. I know things were chaotic this morning but I wanted give you my number if you want to hang out today just let me know.” He freakin responded and it was so great! I was like NO WAY HE JUST TEXT ME!!! As cool as hanging out would have been I really didn’t have my hopes up. I didn’t even think he would respond. He said he had about 20 interviews and his flight left at 4pm but if I am in LA I should call him and he would take me out. He could have said Taylor who and I would have been embarrassed but excited it was the right number. It’s moments like this that help balance out the real life day to day drama. The things I have going on with my family that I haven’t shared because you never know what’s going on behind closed doors. The daily drama’s and the road to self discovery is hard and emotional and confusing. To have the chance to meet him was one of those small things to some but a big deal to me. Adam was so fun and for the hour he was at the studio and the text he sent back let me escape my own personal drama. That’s what I am most thankful for…The Small Things! =)

The anticipation is killing me! I am so excited about today because not only is it exactly 1 month before my birthday it is Adam Brody Day! My favorite holiday of the year and I have a feeling this will be the greatest day of this year. I know it’s probably so lame to have such a crush but I don’t care. Last night I went to the mall hoping to find something cute, something different, something that stands out but then realized I would be more comfortable in my favorite outfit. My signature style is jeans that make me feel sexy and a white tank top. I did however add a red jacket for that extra burst of color. I love walking around the mall and people watching. I didn’t get there until about 7:30 so that only left me an hour and a half. I bought this top from Neiman Marcus Last Call and it was too small so I returned it. I really hate to return things. I will if I have to but I always feel like I have to explain exactly why even though the person at customer service could care less. I was in such a good mood yesterday and today that I have had the patience of a monk. I strolled up to the counter and asked if this was where I needed to be. I could tell she was ready to get out of there so I was calm and let her take her time without looking at the time watching the minutes speed by. I thought it was my citizenly duty to cheer her up and after what I thought was some fun witty banter I realized she could not have been more annoyed. I was too happy to feel like a complete idiot so I just shut up and let her finish. Then I made a bee line to Off Saks which by the way has the best deals on designer jeans I would say 70% of the time. I wasn’t sure exactly what I was looking for so pretty much I just gave it the one over and headed to the Mecca of inexpensive tops and costume jewelry Forever 21. It can be a bit overwhelming so take it one section at a time. This is the perfect place for tops you only plan on wearing 1x because after you wash it will be the last time you wear it (they ruin easy). I found a jacket and then mentally scanned my closet. I decided I probably had something to wear and it was time to go home and face the mountain of clothes on my closet floor. I washed my favorite jeans and white tank, laid out my shoes and hit the bed for one of the best night sleeps. Today is a great day and I am excited!!

Yesterday I couldn’t believe what I heard. I was at dinner with 2 of my girlfriends and it was great. We were catching up on each others lives when my newly single friend said she went out with this guy and he wasn’t wearing anything underneath his jeans. Okay I have heard of this I know people that just don’t. Well my coupled friend immediately jumped all over her saying she should drop him ASAP. Okay Why? Well apparently it’s this tell tale sign he is a man hoe! Hmm… that was so interesting because I have never heard this before and I would have never thought of this as a sign he was any which way. I know there is an exception to every rule but I do think now that I have heard it that it has to be true for the majority. I honestly could not tell you off hand what are some immediate jerk alert traits. It doesn’t matter I guess I haven’t really had time for a dating life and for once I am okay with it. I am not saying next month I will feel the same but as of now I am happy hanging out with my friends and working. It’s amazing the difference friends can make because you don’t have to spend 24/7 with them to not feel lonely but when you are alone its not so bad. I just don’t want to end up like some robotic girlfriend who has the moves down but when you look in my eyes they are hallow and submissive. Heidi on The Hills for example got so wrapped in Spencer that every look she gave after they were together was empty. She looked like she had this manufactured, scared, vulnerable smile. I know this because I was this. Heart rules the mind and he ruled the heart. I noticed when I was out on Sat. night a girl who was friends with my friend was doing the motions of a strong girlfriend but if you looked at her face you could see she was struggling to keep him happy. She was so gorgeous but her eyes were so helpless and sad. I would like to think all relationships are happy and carefree but from my own experience that doesn’t always ring true. I won’t continue to make my mistakes because I am constantly learning from them.

I made a big change Tuesday and I did something I have never done before. Today morning when I woke up I did a double take in the mirror because it was on Tuesday at 3pm that I dyed my hair really dark. I mean it is Cameron Diaz dark it is Jessica Simpson dark and I love it. I had mixed emotions at the salon but when the new me woke up today I was presently surprised. I love it and thank you to everyone who has welcomed me to the dark side. It’s exciting I almost feel even sassier than I might have being a blond. I have realized that even if I did hate it there is no point because I can’t change it for at least 6 or 7 months. I am embracing the new look and taking this opportunity to make other changes in my life because I am about to be 23 and it is time to grow up. I love being a girl and love playing dress up. It reminds me of when my mom and I used to spend time together playing in her make-up, painting our nails, and putting on 100’s of fashion shows. She is uber feminine and some of my best memories with her are just being a girl. Yesterday I saw my dad and he is not on board with the hair color he kept on asking when I was going to get my tattoos and what time did the rave start. I think part of him was joking ummm… I hope. Regardless it rocks and I don’t care who thinks it has changed me. Okay this is the last thing about it but it has never happened before so I must tell. Yesterday a lady stopped me and asked me for directions. No one has ever done that so I guess that’s why I had to show off a little bit which is so lame of me but what are you going to do. I drew a map on a napkin and then wrote out a very detailed explanation of how to get there (lol).
I was trying to take a nap yesterday afternoon when my phone rang. Instead cursing it like I usually do I looked at it and noticed it was Taylor Swanson. Wow really I looked twice to make sure. She had not called me in like 4 months. It was so great she apologized for blowing me off and asked if we could get together so she could explain everything and catch up. YAY!! I can’t wait.

My weekend was fantastic! I am now involved in a Love/ Hate relationship. WHAT? I know right but it’s not what you think. This relationship I am talking about is with myspace. I hate the spam and the speed and the times it may or may not work but, I love that it re-kindled a long lost relationship for me. My old bff from elementary school Paria and I got back in touch through this and then spent most of the weekend hanging out. It was so much fun. We reminisced a little bit but how much can we dwell on our 2nd grade memories. Except for one that is so funny to us. In 2nd grade we played heads up 7 up in Mrs. Rhores class but we were not allowed to pick each other because we would end up smashing each others thumb down and we aren’t sure why but for some reason we could not get along during this game. Hahaha I mean seriously who does that? After that laugh riot we mostly just caught up on what we have been doing now. I have a few close friends already that all have great qualities and they are all different but she is super smart, and single and the quality that I love the most is she loves music and the same kind of music as I do. It has been 6 years since we have seen each other and it was just really cool to hang out with her again. We also have the same taste in guys and laughed about how we are for our age doing pretty good but the skinny jeans wearing, tattoo having, guitar playing, tall, thin, dark haired, possibly unemployed (lol) guys make us weak at the knee’s. We see there potential and usually get screwed over by them but either way the hilarity ensues. Friday night was totally casual and it ended up being an early night. Saturday night started in high heels and sushi and then quickly turned with our 4 glass of wine. Don’t ask! Sunday I was pretty useless do to my Saturday but I will justify that by saying that I haven’t had a Lazy fast food eating day like that in a long while. I am ready for my busy week and I am so excited about Paria and I hanging out again on Wednesday! YAY
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