My day yesterday could not have started any worse and yes mom I did get the memo about growing up and taking responsibility. I hate that I have allowed myself to slip back into a few old habits and I have become so easily distracted letting my ADD take all of the blame. I was late everywhere I seemed to go yesterday and I couldn’t be more mad at myself about it. After the show I booked it to a 10:30 movie screening for the new Adam Brody film “In the Land of Women.” I was so pumped about seeing this because I love Adam Brody. I did not read the synopsis going in so it caught me a little off guard and in my usual Taylor fashion I left the theatre crying. Yes I am the chick that cries at movies and I am okay with that to an extent but what I am not okay with is my crying skin. I can’t stand that about me it’s so hideous. The tip of my nose turns beet red, then about ½ of my skin turns white as a ghost and the other half is pink and splotchy. I can’t ever hide it if I have been crying and asking me about it sparks emotion and I start weeping. Then the rest of my day is me walking around trying to hold it together. When I left the movie it was about 12:20 and I was starving so instead of fast food which I TRY not to really do anymore or going through my small list of friends hoping someone will go with me I went to the sushi bar alone. I stopped and picked up our local paper and headed into Blue Fish as a single. I feel like if I have something there such as a book or paper or whatever it’s like a shield that I am hoping say’s “I’m confident to do this alone and stop trying to look through me because you might actually notice that behind my choice of reading material I am completely insecure.” I ordered the Spicy Tuna rolls YUM just in case you were interested in knowing. After my 2nd piece of sushi I couldn’t handle eat anymore I felt sick and really full. I know my body needs more than just that so I paid my tab and headed home for 1 hour of R&R before I needed to get ready to go to a meeting. I thought I left in plenty of time 35 minutes early for a “20” minute drive and I seemed to do it again I managed to be late. What the hell is wrong with me? The meeting lasted a few hours and when it ended I wanted to crawl into hole and get lost in my thoughts making a new plan and giving myself a bit of a life makeover if you will. I am feeling slightly empowered and hoping my new sense of responsibility will continue to grow. I called my parents house and my little brother Tyler answered the phone. I swear he is one of the funniest persons I have ever known. He was watching American Idol and then explained to me why after last night it will have zero ratings. LOL he said it was really lame and with his dry monotone voice imitated the opening British act. I asked where mom was and he said she was at the hospital because my cousin Shawn had her baby YAY! Okay I love how no one told me about it but that’s okay I guess they knew I would be lost in thought about the direction of my life and figured they would fill me in tomorrow.