I decided last night to suspend my reality and take 2 Tylenol Pm at about 7:45 so last night my dreams started at 8:30ish. It was good for me to do this because my sleeping schedule is completely off balance so hopefully I can get back into my routine. Awwww I am so mad I missed The Hills last night and I wanted to see it so bad. Luckily MTV will replay it 78 times today. The weather yesterday was humid, rainy, and windy. I say this because my ceiling in my apt. is caving in a little bit and chunks of it were falling all over my floor. I called maintenance and Rob informed me that it would be okay and not to worry. I asked him how soon someone can come over and look at it and he said tomorrow. I freak about stuff like this and not only that the part that is leaking and chipping is above my AC unit and my TV. The cool one Kidd got everyone for Christmas. I was really worried because I couldn’t move it alone and I cringed to think that something could happen to it. I asked him if a contractor could come first thing in the morning and he said that contractors have there own version of time and he would try but there was nothing he could do until then. Rob, what the hell? I hope it’s fixed soon so I can quit worrying. My afternoon flew by after the meeting for work. I went to Target to pick up a few supplies because that’s what I do when I’m, bored. I love to wonder around that place. My phone started to ring and when I looked at it I noticed my cousin Blake was calling. I love him we are really close because we are about the same age so we grew up hanging out together. Anyway I was looking at exfoliating scrub when he called so when he asked what I was doing I said “I need to exfoliate so bad so I am deciding which kind I want.” He said “Taylor, gross don’t tell me that.” I about died. LOL seriously I said “Blake, no it’s for my skin perv.” He honestly had no clue what I was talking about. It was really funny because he is such a dude that he honestly didn’t know. Okay most of the guys I am around or know are pretty metro and I am not used to them not knowing way to much about beauty. This made me wonder what else a guys guy doesn’t know and may not want to ask. With that I will list a few basic things and hopefully it will give you guys a better understanding.

Exfoliating- scrubs off dry skin making it silky smooth
Waxing- not that any of us ladies have excess hair in odd places but if we did this how we would get it off.
PMS- yes guys it’s true this explains our mood before our monthly, during, and after our monthly so get over it because it’s real and happens.
Concealer- covers our imperfections such as stress bumps, red splotches, and dark circles that you guys have managed to cause because instead of being open and honest about your feelings you leave us guessing a lot of times and then all hell breaks loose on our skin.
Eyebrow brush- this is a tiny comb that we use to brush our eyebrows because it’s hair too and can make a world of difference with one simple stroke.
Fat Jeans- we will not admit to wearing them in most cases but you should just know which pair they are and never point it out to us that we are wearing them because we know when we are and don’t feel good about it.
Skinny Jeans- we will prance around the apt. in front of you in these or save them for a single girls night out because this pair is magical. We strive to always fit in them but rarely do so when the glorious day arrives and we can get them on we will expect a compliment.

Guys it is vital you know the difference in the 2 pair and what ever you do don’t confuse them or…. I don’t even want to go there. I hope this helps and maybe now you will have a better understanding of the oh so complicated female mind.

Let me go ahead and write my weekend off as a bad 2 days. I just haven’t had a weekend like this in a long time. The good thing is on Sunday I stayed home and reflected on the past 2 days and have decided to grow from this and hopefully not have a repeat. There wasn’t just one thing that was completely horrible it was more like a few little things that I just can’t help but be upset. Friday I decided it would be fun to get my car towed and I didn’t want it back until I paid $165.00 so I made sure the most awful pit bull owning people took care of that. I ran into some old friends that night and it seemed like things were looking up. Saturday Lindsey came over and we made frozen margs at about 3pm then dinner at 5:30. I drank way to much and I am really upset about that because I made and ass of myself at this new bar where some of my friends bartend. I had no intention of staying out that late or agreeing to that 5th seven and seven but regardless it happened and I am just a little disappointed in myself. Let me back track a little bit to Saturday when Lindsey got in a text messaging war with her boyfriend’s roommate. At first I thought she was kidding because I haven’t fought with someone like that in so long that I just thought we were to old for one and the tension it was going to cause between her bf and his rm. Her bf’s little brother was in his room playing video games and the rm went in there and said he needed to leave. Okay first off he is 11 and secondly he was minding his own business. Lindsey started it off by text telling him he was a loser and he said she was ugly then she said you’re a thief and she were his gf she would have left him too. He said she was a skinny B. I mean this is just the jest of it but I was caught off guard by what they were doing. It was really immature but we all have our moments I guess it was just funny because they were thinking of every way to cut each other down. It reminded me of when Jess and I had a roommate and the drama that goes with 3’s. It’s always hard when there is tension between a significant other and a friend. I’m sure we all can relate.

I was at Starbucks last night and WOW what a dumb idea. I mean coffee at 7pm is just not smart because I was sure I would be wired all night. Luckily, I had no such problem and I was out like light pretty early. Okay back to my point of the Starbucks adventure. The guy behind the counter was adorable and probably about 18ish and the cute Asian chick behind me was about the same age. I hurried and ordered my coffee so they had plenty of flirting time. I didn’t just assume they would but I happened to noticed they were looking at each other with those puppy love eyes and it was truly the sweetest thing I have seen in forever. Here’s what happened and I think it’s brilliant on his part. What I was able to put together in the 5 minutes I was there was that she had already been up there and ordered an ice coffee treat. Well he apparently thought it would be a great idea to mess up her order, so she would come back up there and hopefully by then he would have worked up enough courage to ask her out or at the very least get her myspace. I pretended to look at the Starbucks CD so I could listen in and when she stepped up there to say her coffee was wrong the guy said “I know” then the magic happened and giggling and eyelash batting and finally number exchanging. Okay this kid has moves and it warmed my heart to see this. I swear it was so adorable! I love seeing people get excited and for a girl to have a guy do something to show he interested and not leave us guessing for once is in my opinion very much appreciated.

My day yesterday could not have started any worse and yes mom I did get the memo about growing up and taking responsibility. I hate that I have allowed myself to slip back into a few old habits and I have become so easily distracted letting my ADD take all of the blame. I was late everywhere I seemed to go yesterday and I couldn’t be more mad at myself about it. After the show I booked it to a 10:30 movie screening for the new Adam Brody film “In the Land of Women.” I was so pumped about seeing this because I love Adam Brody. I did not read the synopsis going in so it caught me a little off guard and in my usual Taylor fashion I left the theatre crying. Yes I am the chick that cries at movies and I am okay with that to an extent but what I am not okay with is my crying skin. I can’t stand that about me it’s so hideous. The tip of my nose turns beet red, then about ½ of my skin turns white as a ghost and the other half is pink and splotchy. I can’t ever hide it if I have been crying and asking me about it sparks emotion and I start weeping. Then the rest of my day is me walking around trying to hold it together. When I left the movie it was about 12:20 and I was starving so instead of fast food which I TRY not to really do anymore or going through my small list of friends hoping someone will go with me I went to the sushi bar alone. I stopped and picked up our local paper and headed into Blue Fish as a single. I feel like if I have something there such as a book or paper or whatever it’s like a shield that I am hoping say’s “I’m confident to do this alone and stop trying to look through me because you might actually notice that behind my choice of reading material I am completely insecure.” I ordered the Spicy Tuna rolls YUM just in case you were interested in knowing. After my 2nd piece of sushi I couldn’t handle eat anymore I felt sick and really full. I know my body needs more than just that so I paid my tab and headed home for 1 hour of R&R before I needed to get ready to go to a meeting. I thought I left in plenty of time 35 minutes early for a “20” minute drive and I seemed to do it again I managed to be late. What the hell is wrong with me? The meeting lasted a few hours and when it ended I wanted to crawl into hole and get lost in my thoughts making a new plan and giving myself a bit of a life makeover if you will. I am feeling slightly empowered and hoping my new sense of responsibility will continue to grow. I called my parents house and my little brother Tyler answered the phone. I swear he is one of the funniest persons I have ever known. He was watching American Idol and then explained to me why after last night it will have zero ratings. LOL he said it was really lame and with his dry monotone voice imitated the opening British act. I asked where mom was and he said she was at the hospital because my cousin Shawn had her baby YAY! Okay I love how no one told me about it but that’s okay I guess they knew I would be lost in thought about the direction of my life and figured they would fill me in tomorrow.

I’m back from spring back and now it’s time to rest. I traveled like a gypsy from L.A. to Austin for SXSW and it was awesome. I started my break with only one thing planned and that was to go to L.A. for 2 days but then I called my gay pal Kevin and my straight friend Sean who live in Santa Monica and extended my trip. I stayed in the Four Seasons and there were so many cool people staying there but the greatest person I saw was Clive Owen. HOT! I went there for work and interviewed Will Ferrell who was hilarious and the other cast members for the new movie Blades of Glory. Sunday was when I was supposed to leave and head back but then I changed my flight and partied down in Santa Monica which is one of my most favorite places to vacation. My friends still had there 9-5 jobs so during the day it was up to me to have fun on my own. I am use to doing things solo so it wasn’t a big deal to be alone for the afternoon I actually enjoyed it because I look at it as an adventure. Okay so there is this hostel by the promenade and an International Café that I love so I walked there had lunch and pretended to read my book so I could actually people watch. The street performers are the best and highly entertaining. I was in the middle of my tuna sandwich when this old man who may or may not have been homeless walked by and said “Hello pretty.” I said hi and then waited for him to keep walking but NO he decided to pull up a chair and sit with me. I was a little annoyed but hated to be rude. Instead of thinking this is the worst situation I decided to turn it and use this as an opportunity to meet a new friend. This man was talking no stop so I let him ramble about gas prices while I scoped out the friend situation. I was waiting for a cool chick or a good looking guy to stroll by solo. 10 minutes had gone by and no one came by that wasn’t coupled up. Finally this tall pretty good looking guy walked by and turned into the café. Okay I thought this is it so I will make my move to get out of my conversation and start a new one. I jumped out of my chair and gave this guy a hug then said “Hey OMG I have been waiting for you way to be late.” I wasn’t sure if he would play along or think wow she’s odd. My luck was right on and he looked at the situation then said “Hey girl sorry I’m late I will tell you all about it.” Then he introduced himself to Joe the old man and then politely said “Hey man good to meet ya but she and I need to talk privately.” Joe was cool about it and shook my hand then walked on. My new friend was named Mark and he was an actor. LOL! They all are. We talked for about 15 minutes then he headed on and I continued my people watching. About 20 minutes went by and that’s when I met Johnny and Ryan 2 cool guys who are Indie film producers they do short films at the Sundance Film festival. They were eating lunch and hanging out so when they asked me to join I happily accepted. We talked about movies and music then headed the 2 blocks to check out the beach. I had the best time and just love Cali you never know who you are going to meet.

I am so sore from my big move yesterday, I mean seriously I haven’t hurt this bad in a while. The early afternoon was a bit disastrous and unorganized. I tried to put together a good plan for the move but it pretty much fell through. My cousin Blake was going to meet me at 11:30 but he decided in a state of hung over he would meet me at 12:45 instead. Okay no big because “hey you know what? It is what it is.” I have been there and he is doing this as a favor. The only thing is Dianthe was there waiting with me to video the whole moving experience. I knew she had a busy day so I told her don’t worry about it and we would finish tomorrow or something. Blake gets there and the HI larity begins. I was so proud of myself for not being a total chick! I didn’t whine, or act like a total wimp. No! I busted my a*# lifting the mattress, dresser, end table, etc. Blake’s friend Justin bailed so it was just him and I going up and down stairs with everything that I owned. My stuff is scattered everywhere, Taylor’s apt. the one I am in now, and storage. Okay I know talking about moving is just as much of a beating as actually doing it. What seemed like a never ending day finally did and when I went to put my bed together to stay in my new apt. I realized that was all I had got over there. How is that possible? Hours of this crap and all I have accomplished is my bed! Blake was gone and I was back in my old place looking around at the big empty rooms. I was actually a little bit sad and then the pity party began. I pulled out my cell phone and scrolled through every name. I realized I have no single girl friends and by this I mean my close girlfriends that I know and trust. I am quick to make an acquaintance but I am very skeptical of people at times and that hinders me making new friends to go out with. It’s not even just about going out or needing help with something. I mean someone to confide in or to call up and say hey lets meet at the sushi bar. I know it’s a silly example but when you have the girls to do that with then it makes sense. I invited Taylor who I rarely see anymore to come by and promised I wouldn’t even ask her to lift a finger but at around 6pm she text me and said she was staying in with Jason. I understand that but sometimes things get lonely. One of my best girlfriends Brit she lives in Austin and I miss her like crazy! I am trying to talk her into moving here to Dallas. She is always talking about moving here and says she isn’t really happy there but to be honest I don’t think she will. I guess there is no harm in trying right? Oh okay so tonight I think I got tickets to The Used, 30 Seconds to Mars, and Senses Fail!!!!! I love The Used! They so ROCK! They are one of my favorite bands of all time and if I did I will give yall every detail because it will undoubtedly be one of the greatest nights in my life as far as concerts go. Also I will have a full review of the movie Black Snake Moan because it looks awesome.

Today is the big day! MOVING DAY! Up until today I have been stressed and anxious but after my yesterday it’s all good! I packed up my clothes in old shopping bags, and threw the rest on my comforter which I then just folded over. I had to turn in my car yesterday because the lease was up and I already got my new one. This lease car was so dirty! It had not had a bath in like 5 months and the inside was a little dusty but not completely horrid. The oil was in desperate need of changing so my day was the busiest it has been in forever. Wednesday just might be my new favorite day because apparently Wednesday is LADIES DAY! I’m so serious I went to Kwik Lube and it was 8.00 off because…Ladies Day. I went to the car wash and the 26.00 dollar car wash was 10.00 because…Ladies Day. I am feeling pressed for time so when I was at the car wash I needed to get in and out as quick as possible. I pull up and get the super interior something and the express wash on the outside. Okay while the peeps are cleaning the inside this guy who works there walks up and says I cannot get the interior and express together. He said I had to get the interior and supreme wash which included a wax and tire whatever. I was like ummmm that’s silly because I don’t need all the extra stuff just a quick run through. The man said sorry but I can’t do that with that package wash deal. Okay well I don’t want to get this guy in trouble so I will creatively solve my problem. This is about principle by this time because I would only be saving 6.00 dollars in this argument but that’s no longer the point! So I decided I would pay for interior only and then I drove out of the parking lot and u turned then I drove right back in for an express wash. I was in a hurry to get everything done and needed a pen but didn’t have one and I was too tired to get out and buy one so I drove through a bank line and asked the teller for one then I quickly speed away. I started to feel guilty so I returned it during the show. Well I am off to move! Xoxo
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