I feel like there is so much going on in my life that I don't know exactly where to start. I am at a place where I am making my own desicions and forming my own opinions apart from what I was raised to think. I don't just mean religion and politics other things such as inter racial dating, my views on homosexuality. I realize I am being ver PC but those are just topic examples. My life has had it's up and downs much like everyone. I do think my story has many dark moments. I moved to California in May of 2004. I went with a boyfriend (Jessie) and we didn't have much of a plan. That year away was life changing in a way I feel like I lead a double life. I experienced what I thought was the loneliest time without my family and friends. I gave Cali its fair chance and then made the decision to change what I thought was a horrible and beautiful experience. Austin Texas don't ask me why but in June of 2005 that is where I moved. Jessie and I did the 22 hour drive to a new start. Things were so amazing and we were getting along and had built our relationship and were getting ready for marriage. He tattooed my initials on his ring finger as re assurance. I thought its was so hot! I love that tattoo, eyeliner wearing bad boy image. Dark hair is also a plus. Sorry I just lost track and started obsessing again. I have serious ADD. Were was I oh yeah It was April when my relationship went from great to depressing. I became so withdrawn hardley ever getting out of bed or talking to anyone. There were nights that he wouldn't even come home. After the first time I stopped asking and lived in complete denial. I would wake up go to work and come home. I was so over all of it. I couldn't believe I let things get so bad and hateful. I finally broke away called my parents and thats when they drove down and with the help of my brothers packed my apt. up in a matter of hours. I have always been so close to my family I have put them all on a pedastal. Now heres were I am at in my life. I haven't been this happy in a long time. I do have my issues with weight and my ex boyfriend but over all I am really so happy. I feel like I for once thought about myself and did something I am proud of. I love the challenge and the ability to things that are silly and creative. I have no problem laughing at myself because I truley am a huge nerd. I accept that, and I am confident knowing it. Right now my drama is me. I am losing motivation to feel good. I have always battled weight issues. I don't have an eating disorder and I never really have had one. Unless constantly obsessing about it is one? I associate skinny with being feminine and the bigger I get the more I feel like a boy. I can't completely explain it its just a feeling I get within myself. I am hoping this week I will get over my lazy ways and work out or atleast get some sun on my face because I do believe the sun helps my mood. Oh and as far as Jessie goes well thats a long long story with what is happening but I am more than willing to start sharing on future blogs. My myspace is www.myspace.com/taylorglover feel free to ask me anything.

XOXO
Taylor

PS: I am working on my grammer so please don't be to critical. The truth is I never really learned exactly how to write correctly with my punctuation and it is embarrassing but I am trying.

I am sitting in the hot as hell sun at my apt. Why you ask? Here it goes... I am sitting here using the wireless internet because it takes a year for the cable guy (time warner) to make it out and set up everything. I would love to say I am in my place catching up on some much needed me time but that is just not the case.

That feels so much better sorry I had to vent. Work is going great and by that I mean I love it and I want to be doing something for the show 24/7. I am not just saying that to be a kiss (A) I am serious. This is the first time in my life that I am doing something I LOVE. Something I am really passionate about.

Last night I went to the NAB thing and we had Jessica Simpson in our suite. She is so cute with her hair short I love it. I actually thought of cutting mine. I don't think I will follow through considering it took me forever to grow it out. In the suite we needed a few girls to serve beer and wine well Amy asked me if I had any girlfriends that would be interested. Naturally I asked my bestie Taylor and then 2 girls I recently ran into, we all had gone to highschool together. I am really thankful they were able to do it but it's weird when people after highschool lose touch then years later reconnect. It felt different I can't explain it but I didn't really connect with them to much we have changed so much.

This weekend I plan on hitting the streets of Dallas. Tomorrow is a magazine launch party and I am really excited. Envy is the name. I will def. give you the low down after I go. Okay so last night I went to the Pitbull Myspace concert party. I had fun but these table of Latina Chicks were so so so rude to me! I walked by and said "hello ladies." What do I get back? Four evil looks and one said "Who the #@!& does she think she is!" Is it me or was that uncalled for? Why must girls be so rude when all you say is HELLO? Not everyone there was that way I actually met a new chick named Karen who designs jeans and they are fabulous. She was so cool and said that she would send a pair. I can't wait! I am a jean junkie. I LOVE good jeans, they are my favorite thing in the whole world. Every girl needs that pair. The pair that will make you feel beautiful an

My Friday started out with a headache but ended up at a local karaoke bar. I am not one to sing on stage although through RDJ I no longer know embarrassment. I prefer to sit out in the crowd cheering, clapping, and singing from my table. My favorite karaoke song is Sweet Caroline by Neil Diamond. Saturday came and went then Taylor and I pumped our selves up for a night out in Dallas. We met up with some other girls, which always makes for a great girls night out! Next thing Tay and I know its last call and we head straight to Taco C. Why is it okay for loud drunk people to cut in line? I was afraid to say anything because I felt like people would start fighting and it just wasn't worth it. Sunday fun day, no matter what happens it has to be the theme of my Sunday. Today was so great it rained so I lay bundled up and watched one of the funniest comedy stand ups ever. I am talking about the new Dane Cook HBO special. LOVES IT! He was so funny when he talked about relationships and cheating, how he would fight with his ex and the funniest was the one nightstand. I think humor is so attractive and therefore Dane has made my top five hot celeb list. I have only one complaint his hair. I really didn't like the way it was fixed it was definitely to long for that style. Well that was my weekend in a nutshell.

My weekend was a chance for me to catch up on some sleep for one but it was also a chance to finish moving out of my old apt. It had to be one of the greatest moments in my life not the but one of the. I was able to meet Blue October and listen to them live in the studio. I have seen so many of there concerts over the years. A true fan since I was introduced to there music years ago and now a chance to talk to them. It was amazing!

Friday after the show I interviewed Taylor Hicks and he was distant at first but after a few minutes he warmed up and was really down to earth. One thing that did bother was that he kept calling me man. I know it is a general term but I found it to be annoying. Saturday I spent time with my little brother and it was so great he is 15 and with such a big age difference I think it’s important to make sure we don’t let that cause any distance. Saturday night I went out with some friends to watch the game and a disappointing lose from UT.

On Sunday my roommate Taylor was taking out the trash and she went to throw it over the dumpster her keys caught the bag and in they went. LOL! She tried to convince me to go in saying I had experience with this sort of thing. Nice try Taylor. I think that had to be the highlight of my weekend watching her dive for her keys.

Today was a pretty busy little Wednesday, and I spent most of the day running some errands. Yet it was only after my bidding battle purchase on E-Bay a few weeks ago when I ended up with a Zach Morris phone that has the worst battery life you have ever seen, that I finally decided it was time to invest in a new phone (and by invest I mean get a new cell plan where the phone is free). I KNOW, I KNOW, its bad, but I refuse to spend ridiculous amounts of money on a cell. So anyways, I went to Sprint and I got a new phone. Let me tell you, the hardest decision when picking out a phone really has nothing to do with the way the phone performs or all of that nonsense, the hardest decision is what color phone to go with. I mean this can be tough… my choices were a red outer face plate or a silver face plate. I weighed my options and it occurred to me that there is no way I could go with the red. Don’t get me wrong, red is a stand out color, but what if I was carrying a green purse! Now I am all about getting into the Christmas spirit, but it is in December and December ONLY that red and green are allowed to be seen together! My roommate also helped in this decision, she told me that the only reasonable decision would be to go with the standard silver faceplate. She reminded me of an age old story of when she use to drive a yellow Mustang convertible and how hard it was to match her outfits to her car, I mean she couldn’t even get away with your standard black without looking like a bumble be. Point taken roomie, and the decision was clear… silver it was. Now not only did I get to pick out the color of my new free phone but I went a step further and took it upon myself to pick out the new number as well. Yeah I said it; I picked out my new phone number; that way I could be absolutely sure that I got the cutest number. Now you may be asking yourself what makes a phone number “cute’? Well… let’s not sit here and deny that at one time or another we haven’t all gone out of our way to play with our phones to see if we can make any cool pattern out of the numbers on our cells. Better yet when you can come up with some cool way to make the numbers work out so that it spells something cute. That way when you give out your number you can give out the phrase instead of just the number. I know what a concept… let’s just say I made a perfect choice for my number!