Amanda got kicked off the show today, I got to be in the studio and ask a couple of questions with Jessica Simpson, we took Glamour Shots (who knew that company still existed, and Morgan is wasted! All and all, a good day! :) It's less than 36 hours to go! I really hope that I get this job!

Oh my GOSH!!!!!!!!! These girls could they be more jealous and drunk?? We went to do this stunt and afterwards went to Primos it was by the way great as usual! And well I met 2 of the actors from Prison Break (love the show) and they said they would have voted for me to win in Radio Dream Job there was a girl with them and I didn’t look past her I introduced myself and she agreed with them. Oh and this was all recorded because JC said when we first got there for Bianya and I to go with him not just me. He wanted to get feedback from listeners. That blew up in my face even though I did not a thing wrong. We get back to the loft and they said they were jealous of me (I promise I am not saying they are they said they were.) well after a brutal attack on me they lashed out said they didn’t like my clothes or hair and I was favored and they said the editing of these stunts was unfair to them which I don’t get because I have only won 1 mission. Yesterday I stayed at the lofter while the girls went to get pedicures I had lost in singing by 39 votes and some how they turned that into my fault I can’t help it if you guys thought I was the worst. I got so upset last night I cried and yes it was the first time but the personal and physical attack they gave me was unfair and for no reason what so ever. I went straight to bed as soon as the mini show was done and Bianya, Adrienne, and new girl stayed up until who knows and bashed me all night I know this because it was so loud and rude and hurtful I was all I could do to not cry so I forced myself to fall asleep. I have been slightly vague but its 5am and I have to go get ready to interview Jessica Simpson with Bianya which I earned not given to me the others voted this was but I am sure it will be thrown in my face somehow. GTG love yalls support. XOXO

Today yet again I am a target for caddy claws (not saying I haven’t done my share of clawing but I had good reasoning not just out of no where) so when Amanda a new comer walks in the loft as our big twist and the first words out of her mouth were not hey guys, but Taylor I’m your match watch out or something like that. HAHA seriously not a great first impression. I will not let you come in and start the accusations like you have been here or push my buttons so that I fall off my game and not continue being myself. I have been true so for her to put up a false front was tacky. Alma is gone its best in my opinion she didn’t want to be here anyway and I thought it was fair after her violent outburst she leave. I am enjoying every minute and what a fun experience this has been I mean I have rapped done stand up and today karaoke at Luby's LOL bring it these are a great outlets for creativity and very challenging Tuesday morning we are having our duets aired and although mine sounds like kidz BOP I still pumped my fist down on bended knee and gave my all. After our 7pm show we got to chat with everyone online and I loved it the good and bad but it was nice to have a connection with people who have been following they had such support and they are becoming passionate I really felt so great to know that there are people who enjoy what I like to call ME. I also got to read the message board and it wasn’t just the positive that I read but the neg. I took that as not everyone will like me and as advice. I love the fans and I can’t wait to see how this will all turn out. Please keep posting and chatting I promise I am listening.

Lake was great got some sun kissed a hot guy now I’m done! LOL okay for real there is nothing wrong for a single girl to be attracted to someone momentarily and then kiss them please move on everyone not that big of a deal. So I am so happy that tomorrow is Monday and Friday will soon be following I am so ready to get out of here every minute that goes by people are defining themselves and then person by person we are picking them apart for a caddy competition I am not innocent and don’t claim to be. Adrienne is confusing me because she harps on everyone and slides by without scrutiny. She is the one that has least showed her colors. Also I want Alma gone she in my opinion a ticking time bomb and it scares me one minute calm and the next she’s completely irrational.

Tonight after I was sure I would have thrown up while doing the Improv I didn’t I actually got a laugh and whether they laughed at me or with me I am okay because I couldn't tell the difference. I just would like to say that tonight JC and I had a leg wrestling contest and not just once but twice I whooped him clearly we both know who has the powerful legs. He kept bragging about ohhh Taylor I have 70 lbs. on you and I squat like 1 million well JC you were defeated and I loved it!!!! I also would like to say I did 3 times beat Bianya!!! (In leg wrestling) I also would like to say I have never kissed a girl now I have friends that have but I haven’t but I did finally get Adrienne to admit that she has kissed at least 7 in a drunken stupper. Okay Blog I love that I can be so honest thanks and I appreciate everyone who came out and showed me some love!! You guys ROCK! XOXO

This competition is heating up. Morgan and I have made it clear to each other that there is an equal amount of dislike. I don't care for the person she is it's to conservative and very contradicting. You know you are restless when we purposely left laundry in the laundry room just to be able to get out of this loft for and extra 3 minutes. I don’t think that keeping us in here aside from the projects is causing tension right now in fact more bonds are being made because we goofing around to kill time. I understand more hits on the internet are at night so it’s important to be here but in all honestly if we are here all day and at night then there aren’t any interesting stories not as many interesting stories. I am so over the usual gang up of the 4 girls and I 3 out 4 said they wanted me out that I was to cookie cutter I say they just see me as a threat and well I earned this so ladies your stuck let the games begin. Morgan also should stop crying daily its getting old stick up for yourself tears wont always do it. Okay back to the loft situation all there is to do besides our daily homework is eat KIDD let us out before I become overweight from boredom eating okay thanks.

Profound Moment

Everybody has defining moments in there life well I have been blessed with many influential experiences that have greatly changed me throughout this year. When my EX boyfriend and I broke up a few months back I packed everything I had and moved back home. I went from practically planning a wedding to planning a whole new future and having to be completely self sufficient. This was an experience that changed me indefinitely. He showed me what I was capable of emotionally. The relationship has made stronger and gave me a new way of looking at myself. This was sad and great even profound.

I really didn’t know what to expect coming into this and let’s just say I still don’t, in fact I am completely shut out of my world on the outside and here in this gorgeous loft competing, I promise y’all it’s to easy. By the way I am really worried that my tanning salon has sent out a search party I mean I didn’t even tell them where I was going or that I was even going to be gone. Luckily we were giving some down time and I headed out into the world away from my roommates in hopes of some sort of adventure and well all I found was the pool. We are going out tonight and I will report back with all the juicy details plus wine is involved and I love to type tipsy.

We had a great wine tasting tonight and there was a toasting contest well I was told to do whatever so I brought it well okay I thought I brought it until everyone was rhyming and not to caddy. I wrote mine assuming everyone was as blunt as me. Okay I didn’t even get so much as a wine glass tap from the roommates. After everything we came back to the APT to do a little dancing.... I can't dance!!!! OKAY seriously I can't dance and so I thought after watching a few of my roomies that Bianya had the best moves. It wasn't the stereotypical because she is the token black girl but I really think that she was the dancer I wanted to be, so I had her give me lessons and I must say after the feedback from "the others" I must have just been so embarrassingly bad. I don't even want to dwell on the past 4 years and the times that I thought I could hang. Now I did take it upon myself to teach my own personal lessons so tune in tomorrow night for more white girl dancingtechniques.

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